Welcome back! I would love to come on here and boast of some great success, but that wouldn’t be keeping me accountable and honest. I’m not going to gain any insight or trust if I pretend everything’s great online when I really binged and had an awful week. That leads me right into my recap of last week. I had two major, stressful, out of the ordinary events happen at work this week which I unfortunately let get to me way more than I should have.
I have to keep reminding myself that I’m on the mend, but I’m moving slowly so when things like this happen and I eat a bunch of junk food, it’s going to happen and I have to stop beating myself up for it. The first event actually happened at the end of last week so it started me off on a bad note. I was in a funk for a couple days (why the Wednesday update didn’t get posted until Sunday), but then things were leveling off and I was getting better. Then Tuesday happened. Well, actually, Monday happened first and I canceled my therapy appointment because of the bad weather. Even just starting out, it’s amazing what a difference it is having an hour of time set aside every week to have someone who doesn’t know me take a good look at my life, validating some things, and gently redirecting my thinking on other things. Not having that weekly release, and then waking up to the drama of Tuesday morning was more than I could handle.
A few small notes of victory throughout this chaotic week:
- We had pizza on Sunday and I ate more than I originally planned to, but then went for an hour long walk. Later that night when my husband went back for more pizza, I stopped myself and really checked if I was even hungry. Not feeling so, I had a glass of water instead. I would have followed my husband and grabbed some pizza with him in the past, but not this time.
- In the midst of one of my crazy emotion, eat all the things, mindsets; I grabbed some chocolate drizzled popcorn. I didn’t get to the root of the problem because I was eating my emotions, but believe me when I say that chocolate drizzled popcorn is a much better snack than what I usually binged on in these moods. I’m counting it as a tiny victory.
I’m still not very good at planning meals, complete with a vegetable side, but that’s one of my goals next week. Even one complete, balanced meal during the week would be a huge accomplishment.
My exercise is another area that I still need a ton of work on, but last week I managed to get in an hour walk, not to mention all of the shoveling I did Tuesday! I am also still making a conscious effort to get out of my chair more often which will be really helpful as it gets darker earlier. I admit to being horrible about leaving my house or really doing anything productive once it gets dark. This is not a good thing when it gets dark at 5pm!
This brings me to the end of the post. All that’s left is to face the numbers, so here goes:
Last week’s weight: 222
This week’s weight: 221.6
Loss: .4 lbs
What was I saying about little victories? 🙂 It’s a pretty small amount, but considering the amount of stress I had, and the foods I ate because of it, I’m happy with any loss. I’m moving slowly, but I’m moving in the right direction.
See you next week!