Getting back to my Wednesday update posts for my weight. As I’ve said, losing weight is something I struggle with (just check out my last post to see what I mean) so it’s not going to be easy. It’ll be slow. Much slower than I want it to be.
My plan, starting today, is to keep a food journal. The easiest way to do this for me is to use an app on my phone like Myfitnesspal. I will also be keeping a little notebook in my purse to help me keep track of things like my mood when eating, was I really hungry or did someone just cut me off while driving? I’ve never been good at keeping journals like this, but I see the benefit of them and I’m going to give it a try!
Full disclosure, I’ve gained a few pounds since I last put the number out there for all of you, so my updated starting weight is: 223.2.This is just about the heaviest I’ve ever been. Considering my bone structure, I could stand to lose a good 70-80 pounds but for now I’m going to focus on smaller goals so I don’t overwhelm myself. I tend to be an all or nothing girl so I get too fixated on that small number way in the distance so when it takes more than a week to get there, I give up.
This time, I’m doing much smaller goals, and a lot more non-scale goals. I’m going to focus on moving more which won’t be much to start seeing as I’ve gotten fairly sedentary. This first week, I aim to walk around my neighborhood 3-4 times, about 30 minutes total each time.
I know my diet is where I need to make a lot of my biggest changes due to my stress eating, so here I’m going to start even smaller and just track my food this week. I always have good intentions and buy veggies but I’m not going to go out of my way to force them on myself this first week. Hopefully just being more mindful of what I’m eating will convince me to grab the celery instead of chips, but if that doesn’t happen this week, I’ll be okay.
Another non-scale goal I have this week is start the process of being nicer to myself. You know the saying “I’m my own worst enemy”? I excel at that. I am constantly belittling myself or being incredibly hard on myself if I mess up. Starting this week, I’m going to work on turning that around. My therapist recommended phrases such as, “I am okay” and “I am good enough,” as starting points to repeat to myself whenever I’m stressed or giving myself a hard time.
I bring up my therapist intentionally because I want to be clear that everything I’m doing here is either my own idea or the recommendation of my therapist based on my situation. While I hope I can offer encouragement and examples of ways things like anxiety and obesity can be overcome and managed, I am in no way a professional that can tell you exactly what will work for you and your life. I will try to answer questions but at the end of the day, the best advice I can give anyone is to seek the help of a professional whether it’s your primary care physician or a local therapist.