I feel like I always like the idea of birthdays and holidays more than the actual events themselves. I know I’m not alone in this. I think part of my problem is that I spend so much time building up the event in my mind that it could never possibly live up to my fantasy and I get disappointed.
Independence Day has always been one of those holidays for me. I completely support our troops and all of the freedoms I have blessed with by living in this country, but I have never really gotten into the big red, white, and blue party complete with lighting off a million fireworks. In fact, I am that neighbor that is entirely sick of the things by time the fourth of July even rolls around and yes I will grumble when you light them off all hours of the night for the entire month of July.
All of that vented, I love the idea of the party. The cute flag cake with homemade lemonade in big glass pitchers, the grill going with backyard games, friends and family laughing and enjoying the warm, sunny day. I have the perfect day built in my head, but that is where it has always lived.
I’m beginning to think that I am just the idea person and not one that can bring my ideas to life. I am not creative in that sense. I cannot create the images that are in my head. My perfect birthday party, the cute homemade Christmas ideas I’ve collected, they never come to fruition… Is this me not trying hard enough, or me just accepting that I’m the idea girl and now I need to find a way to express my ideas to an action person?
In a way, that is what this blog will be for me, an outlet for the ideas in my head. I turned 28 years old just before Independence Day and I have made a deal with myself that I’m going to open up more, I’m going to put myself out there, and I’m going to give myself a friendly shove. I’ve been tweaking a list of 28 things I hope to accomplish this year, so expect to see that list and cheer me on as I hopefully complete all 28 things. One of those things was actually creating this blog so if you are reading these words, then I have checked off my first item on the list. Here’s to the next 27!